What the Author has been Up To: The Inside Scope

I must say from my deepest regrets that I have not been able to spend any time on my blog for the last two months. I come to check up on it from time to time and always see the numbers steadily climbing. It makes me happy to see that it still has it's potentials. Now that the school year is coming to it's close, there is a lot that I plan to do with this site. I wanted to revamp my blog to make it look cleaner and function better. However, because I'm not a web designer wiz this might be a far fetched idea for a girl who is also really busy with preparing her plans to go to Korea!

The Kpop Image

So just about a month and a half ago I made my first twitter account. And already I find myself making surprising connections with some of my followers, who in turn I also follow back. But I am noticing this trend among them all, let me add that they are also all K-pop fans such as myself, that they are being too harsh on themselves for not looking like Hyorin, Dara, or one of the girls from SNSD. And this is not something that is subjected to just the girls, guys are also feeling the pressures in this day and age to look and dress like the K-pop idols from SHINee, B2ST, or from a variety of drama studs who flaunt their fashion and amazing good looks. Because I have that  "lean on me/ motherly" character, I feel like I should in my own sake of morality, reach out to these girls (and guys) who I know are probably just a few years younger than me, and help them to realize that K-pop celebrities, just as any celebrity caught in a culture that sells beauty as an image, is an illusion. But who am I to say anything?

Dara (Kiss MV)

Hyorin

I too am caught in this illusion trap. I actually get my sense of style from what I see in Korean dramas and strive to look and be as fashionable as those actresses, such as Han Ga In in 나빤 남자 (Bad Guy). So I have no real right to tell my twitter followers or even my friends that "its an illusion and you should just except yourself this way." I am contradictory to my own advice. But one thing that does separate me from most other girls is I do have a sense of love for myself. I like to dress up nice not because of an insecurity, well not entirely, but because I have a love for myself that makes me want to take care of me. Think about it. If someone is depressed, they will initially spend less time taking care of themselves. Maybe skip out on meals, bathing, and yes... their clothes will turn into a mesh of frumpiness, a wardrobe taken from the laundry hamper. Why? Because they most likely gave up on themselves. 

Bad Guy (나쁜 남자)

This was supposed to be today's post but via searching content for this I got sucked into making the previous post on Bi Rain's army enlistment. See here.

So currently I am in the middle of watching the K Drama "Bad Guy " (나쁜 남자) as was suggested to me by a friend many times over. My friend Ryan, a Korean Drama addict himself, kept telling me over and over to watch this. Usually our days are spent just talking about the dramas we love. One of the best friends I've got. Well I had just finished watching City Hunter and told him my little heart needed a break from all the stress that these dramas were causing. Hahaha. But he kept insisting I watch it sooner. So I finally buckled into his pressure and started watching it.

He's given me the heads up though, that this drama doesn't end so great. So I'm prepared for disappointment. But I don't believe that 나쁜 남자 was supposed to end so poorly. Doing some "once again searching" I came across some references that might point out the reason.

In one of my personal favorite websites, allkpop, they have a dated post that in brief explains Kim Nam-Gil's time crunch between filming Bad Guy and his enlistment in the Army starting July 15th 2011. See it here. So this had the producers of the drama along with Kim Nam-Gil along with other co-stars on the set bustling to get the drama done in time. However, they had to cut back 3 episodes from the originally planed 20 episodes making "Bad Guy"only 17 episodes long.